Just Thought I Would Mention

Is it significant that COCK and ANAL are the other two options for COAL on my cell phone's smart-texting?

Also, my roommate just yelled from the other room, "what's up with black people and pit bulls?"
I'm not sure if he meant that as two separate issues or one? But I like where this is going...

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oddly, im not as bothered by the fact that cock and anal pop up on your phone in lieu of coal as the fact that you were using the word coal, santa...i mean, i am sitting here, and i honestly cannot envision a scenario where i would need the word coal -- are you sandbaggin with some kinky shit?

im not sure i want to get involved in any issue that starts off "whats up with black people" but i am curious what he was thinking...get back to me on that

while im on here - why did you think 8mm was that disturbing? i just thought it was a good movie, and requiem for a dream was waaaay more fucked up and disturbing to me...

Ok, the truth is that I was using the word "cock", but when I put it in initially, it came up as COAL, and then went to ANAL and then finally to COCK.

While we're on the subject -- I have such a love/ha[v]te (it'll make sense in JUST a second) relationship with my smart-texting. You know what I'm saying? I often times (intend to) write the word "hate" but it always comes up as "have" first, and I never remember to change it, so I've literally sent out hundreds of messages that don't make any sense at all! I Digress---

I think Tron was just getting at the fact that black people always have pit bulls. And I think it's true -- if you subscribe to racial stereotypes. Since we're talking about it -- why are asians so silly? (I'd like to take a moment to quote "The Girl Next Door" when Kelly says, "Those crazy little fuckers sure know their numbers." God, that makes me giggle.) Then there's your recent anecdote.
Do you ever feel that asians are born with a camera and a calculator in their hands? And that perhaps black people are born with a football and a basketball (and, if you're real enough to handle it, a welfare form) in theirs?

I'm not sure why 8mm messed me up so much. The whole thing was just so fucked. As was requiem. Maybe I'll write more about this later.

Ex(istentialism)ceed To Succeed

So I was thinking...

Excess is the only true teacher -- And the only true savior.
Look, everything in life amounts to bullshit. No matter what you do, when you look back on what you've done, it just doesn't mean really anything. Does it? What do you have in the end?
It's a tough lesson to learn, and I think the only way to really learn it is through excess. Excess in everything.

Once you've done something obsessively, to excess, and you look back at what you have to show for it; only then can you see that everything is the same -- Bullshit. Every joke ends in the same punch-line; and the joke is on you, sucka.

See, when you do something to excess, it requires that you sacrifice other things. (There's no such thing as a well-rounded individual; that just means you're deficient in everything! It also means you've chosen to not be great at anything at all. Way to go!) And only through sacrifice can value truly be found. Therein lies your redemption.
People sacrifice for God in order to be forgiven. In some places it's people or animals or things of ornamental value; in other places it's just time and effort. If sacrifice means you are forgiven, and excess begets sacrifice; then excess is the path to your salvation.

So, do something excessively (and hopefully be really good at it-- like drinking). Either way, when you get to the end of the line, all you'll have is the realization that you're lacking; but at least you're saved, brother.

So here's to excess in everything that you do - so that you might actually learn something about life, and be saved from it!


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now that ive recovered from the comatose state induced via computer contact high from your blurb, im gonna try to very briefly respond

i like the topic, i like the meat of the topic - but you really present it like a madman or a man on drugs (as joe p so aptly pointed out)

why does excess drive us? is it materialism? ego? self-actualization? (if you believe in that sort of thing, anyways)
maybe im focusing too much on the positives...there's also the idea of escape, via substance (which is awesome in excess)

by nature, anything we do in excess (for positive or negative reasons) deprives us of doing other things -- excess studying means less sleep, less tv, less gym time, less sex, etc...why do we do it? for self-improvement? generally no...its for ego and materialism and the hope to make excess cash, right?
oh im sorry, i guess im forgetting the .02% of people who go to school for self-improvement...but theyre not reading this b/c theyre in the library reading up on east tibetan philosphy, or sitting in starbucks listening to franz ferdinand (nevermind, those are pseudo-intellectuals, my bad)

i feel like im getting off topic, if there were a topic to begin with...this is all very existential, and we could probably write an entire book on excess and its utility, but i think you covered it in your madman rave, a la (insert historical madman)

does this get us then to ol chuck p's tenet of self-improvement is masturbation?

if we're all doing things to excess...and there's no point in any of it...we're just hamsters running on a wheel, right? "polishing the brass on the titanic," if you will?

so, at no point in my incoherent rambling did i even come close to addressing what you wrote (which was the initial intention) - i award me no points, and may god have mercy on my soul

time to "masturbate" at the gym, chuck p-style

watching the world series

sadly, ive seen more of the 2005 world series of poker up to this point (through 2 games) than ive seen the world series of baseball -- that may be b/c they replay poker and not the baseball, or bc i watch it late at night

anyways, i will be the first to tell you how worthless it is to watch poker on television...but i will also be the first to admit that i watch an inordinate amount of poker on television - even i cannot tell you why...
it doesnt give a reasonable perspective of poker bc you know everyone's hands, and they dont show all of the boring hands where everyone folds to the big blind
so just like all the other reality television, its hardly "real" - just what some editor or producers wants you to see of reality

but day after day, i drift toward the poker like a slutty groupy to anyone holding an instrument in a "band"

my inspiration for writing this? thats right, WSOP coverage is on espn2 for the 10000th time this week...and again, im watching
eventually ill figure out my affinity for it...or ill continue to mindlessly watch it